I drink alone...

I am considering trading in my life verse for a life song. The first minute makes my point for the blog entry. If you just have to watch the whole thing, though, I'll wait for you.

My life in Cancun for the last 29 years might be characterized to some degree as "life in a vacuum". So here go a few thoughts around how I think that has affected me:

IT CAN BE A BAD THING:

Long ago, I chose to accept this life as the Lord's will. So, these comments reflect solely on me, not on anyone else.

I lack the safety in numbers that Solomon recommends (Proverbs 15:22). Extended isolation is probably never a good thing. I feel more like a "not-unscathed-survivor" than an overcomer. As a topic of friendly discussion, I think I could make a case against young missionary couples being allowed to go off on their own. Even Paul was usually surrounded by a healthy number of like-minded people in his travels. At the very least, being on my own leaves me open to a miopic, incomplete, pride-riddled viewpoint.

I lack the stimulus of being among colleagues in the ministry... regular interaction in an environment of a free exchange of ideas; a place where competing/imposing is not in the picture; no recriminations for my weirdness; no accepting/rejecting one another conditioned on agreement over a certain set of positions or opinions. This also includes the need for exposure to newer authors that I would otherwise not be aware of. Now that I own a Kindle, it has been a real treat turning friends' book recommendations into reality in a matter of seconds.

While writing a blog entry, I can feel pretty insecure when I probably do not need to. Conversely, I can just as easily rip off some thoughts or touch a particular theme, quite clueless that I may have just parachuted myself into a field of active land mines.

IT CAN BE A GOOD THING:

Being on my own, though, does have its advantages. It allows me plenty of space to breathe, to think, to digest things with little risk of peer pressure or a particular set of mores prejudicing the process.

At the other end of the isolation-interaction spectrum, there could be so much extraneous inpute that I foresee myself refraining from entirely speaking my mind. You see, I really am a coward. When I do get to be with  colleagues in the ministry, my desire to be accepted feels stronger than my desire for truth.

An honest hermeneutical approach to the Scriptures requires that my head be in tune with big picture stuff a lot more than with day-to-day stuff. If I am not careful, I could end up just living a life of reacting to what is happening around me or among my peers. That would leave me vulnerable to straying from a purely Christ-centered walk.

So yes, "I drink alone". But, in things that matter the most, SO DO YOU!

“If any man come to me, and hate not his father, and mother, and wife, and children, and brothers, and sisters, yes, and his own life also, he cannot be my disciple.” (Luke 14:26)

Jesus' call to discipleship is a compliment to our individuality (See: Bonhoeffer's "Discipleship", chapter 5). It is the opportunity to make an entirely personal commitment to the most important person in our lives. He willingly gave himself in sacrificial love to redeem us. Now he offers us yet another gift of grace: the chance to freely love him back!

At first glance, his invitation appears harsh, self-destructive. But it is simply the most genuine way possible to give us our space to make a decision entirely free of manipulation or coercion. We are allowed the same honor as were the very first disciples.

This is particular redemption at its most particular:

Yes, his call is peremptory, emanating from his eternally sovereign being. We dare not do less than the first disciples. When approached by Jesus' "follow me", they immediately left everything and followed him!

Yet, as we consider his invitation, we realize that it has been individuated. Each of us has a unique set of life experiences, skills, and personality that God determined to use for his own purpose... long before we were born.

How others respond to his call cannot be allowed to influence us. At the end of the day, we will be judged by the Gospel (Romans 2:16). When asked: "What have you done with Jesus who is called the Christ?" (Matthew 27:22), no one will be there to help us with the answer.

That's why: when I drink alone?  ...I prefer to be by myself.